{Nut-hell-no.}

{Nut-hell-no.}
December 22, 2011

Many people at the Biggest Loser Resort shared favorite healthy food choices they have discovered along the way and their suggestions have been key for me at home. I'm not a disciplined eater yet. I'm just starting out on this weight loss journey and am looking to lose the weight equivalent to a large dog or a small pony off my body. It's not going to be easy. It will take me a little over a year (hoping to reach goal weight in Jan 2013) and in order to be successful, I need to learn everything there is to know about living a healthy lifestyle. Knowledge is power. It takes power to succeed.

I'm still living very consciously mindful. I think about every move I make.
Did I drink enough water? Did I track all my food? Am I being mindful about my choices?
I don't want to screw this up the way I have hundreds of weight loss attempts before. Though I agree with our dear friend Meg, overweight people are some of the most knowledgeable healthy food and fitness people on the planet, I needed and need help to start over and re-learn everything. This started at the Biggest Loser Resort. There are 2 aspects I am re-learning that I believe without a doubt will be a huge part of my success: labels and portions sizes. There were so many things I thought I knew...like Nutella for example...for an eater like me (addicted, but in recovery) Nutella is Nut-hell-no. It's got way too many calories in it for how little you get. Like I've said before, don't ask me to count out 15 crackers. I need food in my house that has more bang for my buck. I like volume. Popcorn is great for volume. I know this early in my journey, I need to surround myself with food that, even if I ate too much of it, is not unhealthy in excess. Now please know I'm working on this issue. I want to be able to only have 2 pieces of pizza, count out crackers and not worry about Nutella forcing itself down my throat. I'm not depriving myself, but I am trying to set myself up for success.
Don't let things you think you know stop you from re-learning healthy living.

I thought Nutella had bang for my buck. So I bought some today without reading the label. I got home and all I could think about was smearing some healthy-for-you-almost-like-

chocolate-fudge-Nutella on my Lundberg Rice cake until I pulled off the seal and got some on my finger. I licked it off and I guess it has been a while since I had Nutella because I knew immediately something that good could not have any bang for my buck. Sure enough I read the label and will need to plan those calories into my day next time. I had an entire conversation in my head about knowing that I need to be mindful about what I learned at the Biggest Loser Resort and not assumptions I have made. Damn creamy chocolately hazelnut goodness.

Lastly, my update: still haven't weighed in yet. I plan on weighing in on Christmas morning as a 2 week weigh in after leaving the Resort.
My tailbone is still killin me. So sore. I have to sit on the side of my ass. How much longer? Geez! My right foot started aching my first day home from the Resort and has gotten worse. I didn't injure myself, however I feel pain in the lateral top and bottom of my foot. A little swelling and slightly tender to the touch, but feels pain free when I'm not standing on it. I'm avoiding the Dr. because I know he will just say to stay off it, but I just feel like time off my feet means I'm not moving. "Eat less. Move more", right? Ugh! Tough. I think Tonia would say I should just suck it up. No pain, no gain.

Shout outs:

Nicole...sister...thank you for slowly walking with Cara and I today. You have no idea what an inspiration you are to me. You are a collegiate athlete that knows what intense training and fitness are all about. How lucky am I that I have you to teach me. So excited.

Essara...I'm not even a paying guest/patient of yours anymore and you answer my texts and cheer me on. Thank you for everything you have done and continue to do for me.

Twitter...what an awesome world of connections. I have read so many blogs and met so many people. The access to all the info out there is awesome. Plus I get to see how my girls (Kelly, Heather, and Meg) are going all day long.

Tips:

Nutella...you da bomb, and now part of my 10% options.

If you are a food police officer, please remove your badge and gun. No phat person struggling to love themselves needs you reminding them. They know they have a long road ahead of them. Just be supportive without enforcing rules. Luckily, I do not have anyone in my life like this, but I know people that do and I'm on the verge of lighting a bag of shit on their door step for Christmas morning. Lay off people. Just love us unconditionally. Stop judging. Or I will junk punch you like in the movie 'What Happens in Vegas'. YOU KNOW WHY!