Saturday, February 25, 2012

{Ronald, You Are Dead To Me.}

by Betty                
 Most everyone who knows me knows cooking is not my strongest talent. If you need a paper written, a CPR lesson, or a laugh, I am your girl, but cooking…not so much. I can make the basics and I can boil water, but I am nowhere near the culinary talents of almost anyone in my family. My mom and Cara are brilliant cooks, Dad and Ryan are great grillers, Steven is in culinary school, and Monica can def get by way better than I can. Nicole might be the only one I can take in the kitchen…’might’ being the key word. (I know she learned some serious lessons after that grilled cheese in the toaster mess). Either way, I am not a wiz in the kitchen which makes me laugh out loud. How does one not cook, but have a serious food and weight issue? Oh right, fast food. (This post is quite embarrassing so bear with me as you always do).
Fast food has been my down fall for as far as I can remember. I don’t recall eating much of it with my parents as a kid, but on my own, I was a dedicated patron of all the greats, Jack, KFC, Taco Bell, Carl’s and especially McDonalds. I have not had any fast food since being home from the Resort. (The last fast food I had was on the drive down to the Resort. Cara and I stopped at a Del Taco and I had diarrhea on the first hike that following day and had to crap in a portable potty in the middle of Malibu, California. Can we say that’s what you F’in get!) Fast food is highly addictive and I know this first hand. I craved fast food more than any other kind of food during my emotional eating binges. People told me that I would never eat fast food again if I watched Super Size Me, a movie about the effects fast food has on the body. I saw the movie and I kept eating it. I also read an article about all the things people have found in fast food…finger nail clippings, packaging materials and pubic hair. Yes, hair from your pubic. You think an article like might stop someone from eating the food. Yea, not me.
I was always so embarrassed to order fast food. I would never go inside, always drive-thru. I would google where I could find a drive-thru just so I didn’t have to go in. I never wanted to admit to anyone that I liked fast food. I know it’s disgusting. I knew it with every bite I would take. It’s greasy and fatty and I am surprised that obesity is the only disease I have. I would “run” up the stairs to my house with the bags and large drink hidden so none of my neighbors would see me. I have hidden the garbage under the seat in my car and felt so ashamed for binging on food that took me 30 seconds to consume. I would easily eat 3000-4000 calories in one fast food meal sometimes more than once a week. Fast food is full of sugar and salt, both food items had me completely addicted. Fast food was the easy way out. I didn’t have to cook. I could just choose what type of food I wanted and drive my car through a little path that ended in a full bag of good smelling food that was already cooked for me. It would curb my emotional responses to stress and anxiety until I fell asleep in a food coma. I would always promise myself that tomorrow I would change my eating behavior. “Yesterday, you said tomorrow” is a quote that resonates deep within me. I am not sure why or how my fast food addiction started, but it’s done with now. I have placed it on my “Never Again” list as part of my past life I will not ever return to again. Fast food supported my addiction on and off for several years. I found what I believed to be comfort in food that was killing me. I now feel detoxed from that sugar and salt, but the emotional triggers I used to have are still in existence. Fearing a complete relapse with one bite, I stay far away from fast food.
Writing this blog, though I know I am now in a different place, I feel such shame. Everyday, I want to live a life worth living. Even back before the Resort, I felt humbled by the blessed life I was given. My parents instilled values in me and my sisters that we try to live out every day. Cara, Nicole and I grew up with parents that would do anything for anyone. They would give their last cent out to someone who needed it more. Because of my parents, I live with a true sense of integrity and work ethic that dedicates me to serving other people. I have seen struggle and sadness, yet I have allowed myself to spend money on food that has set me back several years. Shame is an understatement. It saddens me to think that I have not been living my best life. How do I walk around clearly over fed when there are people in this world, right in the community I serve that are starving? So shameful. So embarrassed.
There are many lessons to learn along this journey and being humbled by every reflection allows me to experience the truth of my reality. I have lived very comfortably with my fast food and soda while others struggle to find food. The Biggest Loser TV show talks about paying it forward. Taking the lessons you learn and doing good for someone else. I have learned that I can’t hide myself under the seat in my car or in my jacket so my neighbors don’t see me. Like with this blog, I need to put it all out there. I met with a non-profit organization in San Francisco called Glide Memorial. It is one of the longest standing, most comprehensive resource shelters in the Bay Area. It serves food 3 times a day, 365 days a year to people who have nothing. They find housing and medical care for homeless and less fortunate every day. Glide serves without judgment or restriction. They turn no one away. I spoke very few words during this visit as I was so consumed by the fact that I have this amazing life filled with possibilities and people and support when there are so many without. To pay it forward, with the help of some truly dedicated and selfless people I work with, we are starting a work group that will begin volunteering time to serve food at Glide. Many of us have struggles of all different kinds. I have eaten too much food, when there are many who eat too little and it’s time that I give back. 

“Love.  Acceptance. Compassion”-Glide

Shout Outs:
Cara: YOU LOST FORTY MUTHA EFFIN’ POUNDS! Good work son. Trust the process. I believe in you.
Mom and Dad (aka Chaz and Grod) Thank you for instilling values in me that help me see how lucky we are in this life. I am forever grateful for every ounce of support and unconditional love you give me, Cara and Nicole.
Victor Cruz! Not a day goes by that I am not inspired by you and your fitness journey. Thank you for being my long distance workout partner.
Michael Friedman, our patient yet ass kicking trainer: THANK YOU for making Cara and I a priority. We choose LIFE BY TRAINER!
Heather A: That picture you sent me this week made something very clear for me... Though I have a lot more weight to lose than you did, I believe it can be done. I can’t wait to send you my pics. Thank you for inspiring me.
To Ronald BitchAss McDonald: I will try to avoid blaming you for the weight that I have put on since you didn’t force feed any of it to me, but I can be angry at you. Ronald, you and your stupid costume and stupid fries are DEAD to me. Good bye.
It is important to be present on your journey. Reflect on what is different about your life as you go. Make changes when needed and do what works.
If you have a roof over your head, food in your kitchen and a potty to crap in, find it in yourself to do some work for others that have nothing.
Kill fast food before it kills you.  

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Dropping Emotional Weight

"Its all so real. These are real emotions that are going on. Some of these people have held all their emotions in. Now they have to get them out there, fess up and acknowledge their emotions." -Bob Harper

This week on the NBC Biggest Loser Show emotions got the best of them. And I share this quote from Bob Harper because emotions are a huge part of losing weight, but your support system is even more  important. You need to trust those around you and you need to believe that they will support you along this journey. I was extremely disappointed in this weeks episode, although I have been disappointed with this seasons show in general, I can see myself in them and I know where they are coming from right now. No one said this was easy.

As the weight continues to drop I am realizing that there is a huge emotional weight that comes off too. For the last few weeks as I plateaued a little and as I started my new job I found myself in a very emotional place. I have been feeling great physically as I started meeting with our trainer Michael Friedman. But with so many changes to my life both schedule wise and weight wise I started feeling overwhelmed. That was about 4 weeks ago. Since then I have changed my thinking. I am doing so much better. I also went back to where I was when I felt in control of my weight loss. I realized that for a few weeks I had not been tracking my food in and I was not committed to my 3 workouts. So last week I focused on those two things. I worked out twice with Michael and twice on my own doing 40 minutes on the treadmill. I also tracked all my food in MyFitnessPal app on my iPhone. These are the 2 things that I need to keep up on and I know that I am on track. The four weeks that I was not doing these things I was losing 1-2 pounds. Last week when I focused on these 2 things I went back to what I was losing the first 2 months of my weight loss, I lost 4.7 pounds!

Update: I have officially lost 40.3 pounds! 
Since November 27, 2011. (12 weeks)

When I posted this information on Facebook I was surprised that people actually asked how I was doing it. Hello, I have this blog...this abundance of information and tips and tricks...use it! So I thought I would post exactly what it is that I am doing, using and believing in. 

1. I spent 2 weeks and learned all of this at the Biggest Loser Resort at Fitness Ridge in Malibu, CA. If you can go. If you can afford missing work for a week or 2 or more and afford the stay...GO! It honestly was the best time and money I have ever spent on myself. And I know that I want to go back at some point. 

2. I eat 1600 calories a day. I am loving all kinds of fruit, salads and our whole family is trying new things, like more fresh fish and grains like quinoa. Lots of greek yogurt and WATER.

3. Working out 3 times a week. I now am working out twice a week for 50 minutes with our trainer, Michael Friedman at 24 hour fitness. I love those workouts, they kick my but my arms my legs and my mental game. Yesterday I PB'd (personal best, not peanut butter) at 8.0 sprint on the treadmill. In the end even if you think you are working out well on your own, you cannot push yourself the way someone else can. I also get in 1-2 additional cardio workouts on my treadmill at home, a walk through the neighborhood or the gym with Ryan. 

4.  I wear a BodyMedia Fit CORE armband. It tracks my calories out, my steps taken, the time I spend working out and how hard I workout. I use it to make sure that I am burning more than I am eating. And it holds me accountable so that I know when I need an extra workout or if I need more sleep. 

5. Subway. Eat Fresh. This is a treat for me, but it is also good for me. I eat a 6 inch sub no cheese no mayo, and loaded with veggies and the low fat honey mustard. I feel like when I get at least 1 subway a week I am not actually denying myself of anything. 

There are no gimmicks, pills, powders or tricks up my sleeve. It is what we all know how to do. Self control, making mindful eating part of every bite you take.  I know and you know that a grilled chicken breast on a salad with dressing on the side is a better choice than a whopper or a pasta dish. I know that I was gaining weight because I sat around instead of getting up and moving. 

It's that simple.



Friday, February 17, 2012

{It's Worth It}

by Betty

To echo Cara’s last post “Reality of Life”, life does get in the way. And to clarify, I am a busy person, but no one is busier than a parent. I am lucky in the sense that my time is MY time. I can be quite selfish in how I structure my day, my food and my workouts. (How breeders do it is beyond me.) But that doesn’t mean I have it much easier. I repeat how hard it is many times in my blog posts because prior to starting my journey I would read all these sticky sweet bio’s of people who lost hundreds of pounds, but nothing about how hard it was. All the magazines that feature people losing weight, all the famous success stories like Jennifer Hudson…nothing about their struggle. I would always wonder how people dealt with the hard days. But you never see a magazine article describing their doubt, tears, anger or shame. Just “Oh Hi, I was fat and now I am not and I eat oatmeal now”. Well, I am still fat and still struggle and don’t want to hide that. Especially, if there is even one person reading this blog in need of real motivation and inspiration…if you are like me, you want to know that it’s hard for the people that are on track and trying. Don’t feel like you are the only one doubting the possibility of success. I do every day. I’m sure this doesn’t surprise anyone, but I refuse to sugar coat this journey. Sugar is one of the reasons I am unhealthy, so there will be none of it here. THIS SHIT IS HARD. It’s hard every-effin’-day. But nothing worth anything is going to be easy. I don’t expect it to be easy either. I have an addiction to food and I notice it every day. I still struggle with emotional eating. I can tell when I am eating because I am upset or fearful or stressed out. That type of eating is not healthy for me mentally, but I refuse to eat anything unhealthy. I have not binged, but I have caught myself many times eating my apple or rice cake because of an emotional response. I log all of those incidents as instructed by Essara, my BL Resort Life Coach who I still channel and text anytime I need her. I have many triggers in my life that make we want to turn to food. However, triggers have changed since I have returned home from the Resort and though food is what I know, my coping mechanisms have changed as well. I do a lot of focused breathing throughout the day to clear my mind. I try to do so much and I must realize it’s just not all possible to have everything as I want it to be as quickly as I need it to be. Same with my weight loss. It will not happen overnight and I don’t expect it to. There are things I do every day that contribute to my success on this journey and I will share a few here:
I sweat. Let’s face it people, working out SUCKS! There is little I dislike more right now. But not one day goes by where I don’t do something to burn calories. Michael Friedman, our personal trainer has been pivotal in our lives as I never find myself sweating or breathing as hard on my own. Cara and I are working out with him together for now and the goal is 2 times a week with Michael, 5 times a week on our own. Move your ass people. It’s the only way. (Even if sometimes I would rather poke my eye out with a hot, Tabasco dipped fork.)
I eat 1400 calories a day. I have been getting a little frustrated with food recently because I feel like I have been eating the same stuff over and over again. However, every time I feel myself start to get pissed off at ground turkey and spinach, I remember food is fuel. It doesn’t have to be glamorous. It just needs to be the right stuff. Find what works and eat it. Ground turkey and spinach work great for me. The trick for me is to never find myself without food. I always carry a low fat string cheese, a piece of fruit (usually an apple so it doesn’t get nasty in my bag) and a 100 calorie package of nuts. Food is one of the hardest parts for me, but it is critical that I renew my relationship with food. I owe lots of love to that lady Jennie-O.
Be mindful of everything. This is the key for me. Be aware and don’t allow yourself to give up. I drive past McDonald’s every day and no one would know if I just stopped in for a little visit, but then I remind myself of how I used to feel after eating that crap (gut rumbles and acne) and I know that’s part of my past. Drive on past.
Stay connected to other people who are working just as hard. Working out with my sister is one of the greatest things I am doing right now to stay connected. Granted we are sisters and whether I workout with her or not, she is a huge support, but being next to her during a Michael workout makes me want to be there. I see Meg and Heather and Kelly and Keith and Tracy and Amanda all working so hard and I know this is what I should be doing for myself. There are so many people who have contributed to my every day and I am so thankful.
Update: my scale is broken so I don’t have an updated number for you, but I fit in clothes I was ready to give away a few months ago and I can feel the stress off my knees. I can feel the change and that is all that matters. Trust the process.
Jessica Johnson: my lovely friend. As Cara described in her post, Jess sent us amazing little gifts that are true to her generosity and unconditional support. I worked many hours on an ambulance with her hubby, Dave (Mighty 265 fo life). Dave and Jessica are two people that I never want to live without. There are people on this planet that make it better for everyone else, and they are two of them. Thank you, Jessica for thinking of us and supporting us every day. I love you more than life.
Lisa Peterson: a work friend. Your phone call this week to me was so timely. Thank you for checking in on me and my struggles. You have always been such a support and it helps so much to have someone who understands what stress our work brings. Our weekly phone call vent sessions have saved my mental state.
Jonna Hensley: HAPPY BIRTHDAY (yesterday)! You are one of the reasons my life is so great. Your friendship and insight have changed me to be a better person and I can’t wait to live the rest of our adventures together. Enjoy every moment of your life. You deserve it.
To Sarah Nitta…(We met Sarah our 2nd week at BLR. Sarah was on Biggest Loser Season 11 and now works at the Resort in Utah) on many of my hardest days I remember that Dog Park hike you walked with me and I cried the entire way. You reminded me that days will be hard and it’s all in the attitude you have that helps you get through them. I dedicate this post to you and thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. You are a true inspiration and I will forever hold you in my heart.

Please take a moment to view Sarah’s story. I have never been more moved by anything in my life. She is an amazing lady and I can’t actually believe I can call her a friend. She has helped me save my life. Her sister captured a You Tube video that gives you an idea of her journey.

Reality of LIFE

by Cara
Where the heck have I been?

The reality of life is taking over. Although I would like to think I am super busy, someone busier than I am is running or blogging! My regular life has changed a lot in the last 3 weeks and for the better. Here is my update:

New Beginings:
1. Started working out with Michael Friedman, trainer at 24 hr Fitness (1-2 days a week, 1 with Betty and 1 on my own)
2. Started my new job/training at Stanford Hospital & Clinics as a Communications Specialist in the Patient Transfer Center (this includes Life Flight, so cool!)

Lost, never to find again:

Starting weight: 280lbs
Current: 244.2 lbs
Total lost to date: 36.8 lbs
(12 weeks, since November 27, 2011)

I have to say that I have not been motivated. I have been struggling. This is where life is so much more different than the Biggest Loser Show or even life at Biggest Loser Resort. On the show and at the resort calories are limited with nothing beyond the 1000-1200 allowance even in sight. And 6-8 hours of pure cardio is a reality. Not now. Not in my REAL world. And that is where I am struggling. But I have an amazing support system of people, family, friends and now my trainer Michael. I am very lucky to say that for a real world scenario, I have everything I need (including a gifted treadmill in my living room, thanks Maureen). There is no room for excuses. Even Ryan, my husband, pushes me, the other night I was so tired; with the commute, my days at Stanford are about 15 hours. I wanted to go to bed so badly, but I told Ryan I needed to get 30 minutes in on the treadmill, he encouraged me to get out of my comfy bed, put my shoes on and hit the treadmill.

I am also tagged daily in inspirational photos from an old co-worker who kicks ass regularly with Crossfit. Delanie works hard as a 911 dispatcher here in SF and I haven't told her this, but she really is making my daily mental game improve. Knowing that someone is so commited to supporting me the way that she is makes me feel like I need to support myself a little more. And as they say the mental game is probably the most important.

And lastly I need to thank a friend I haven't seen in a while. Jessica Johnson, is seriously my twin. We have a lot in common, but she needs to know how much I adore her and HOPE to know her for life.  Long history to how I know her simplified, Brianne and Jessica's husband, Dave, were partners at AMR for a long time. Dave and Jess have always been so supportive and caring to everyone they meet. They are funny and even funnier together, they are high school sweethearts and a match made in heaven. I am so inspired by Jess, simply by her ability to be a super mom to 2 amazing girls, but also as a wife, so supportive with her heart and her mind. Brianne and I received a very unexpected gift in the mail yesterday, Jess sent us Lisa Leonard Designs necklaces. Perfect in every way, and  exactly the sentiment that I needed at this unmotivated part of my weight loss journey.

Here are a few of the inspirations that help me along the way. Thank you all for your continued support on this journey. I feel so blessed in every way. I hope that this blog for our readers and friends can continue to be a link to inspiration and motivation. We continue to work hard in hopes that someone reading will also be working hard. Keep it up!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

{Not So Strange}

Losing Weight…Not So Strange.
by Betty

Not much shocks me. I spent 10 years on a 911 ambulance. Enough said. However, last night I was trying to get myself motivated to get off my couch and onto my treadmill when a preview for a show came on TV. The show is Strange Addiction. I have never seen this show and now will never see this show after this preview. First of all, know that I had what 911 people call a “dark cloud” over my head for a full 5 years of my paramedic career. A dark cloud means I saw the worst calls all the time. But this commercial for this show literally made me stop and say W.T.F., punctuation and all. I get that this world is made up of lots of different people that like different things. I pride myself on not being a judger as I know I don’t want to be judged. I find diversity in everyone I meet and accept it. However…this show, Strange Addiction was previewing 3 people on the show, each with a different ‘addiction’. Should you ever need motivation to get off the couch and move your ass, please know this…1 person had an addiction to eating cat treats. Yes, she goes to the store, buys cat treats and eats them. Addiction #2 was a woman who digs in her ears with scissors. Not sure if she is cleaning them out or cutting a homemade paper Valentine out, but nonetheless she uses scissors in her ears. And #3 is a man who has a sexual relationship with his car. Not IN his car. WITH his car. (I am totally serious. I couldn’t make that shit up if I tried). I changed the channel, got up from the couch and walk/jogged 2 miles. I try not to compare myself to anyone else, but I would rather be on this weight loss journey over any other journey. It is hard every day. More hard days than easy days. Food has been my coping mechanism for as long as I can remember and my life has changed because of it. I have lost years from my life by eating. But I am committed. I am aware. And I am so thankful that every day all I have to do is wake up to eat less and move more. So many people in this world struggle. I chose my struggle and now I choose life.

Now, get off your ass and sweat. No excuses.

Update: I have lost 44 pounds since November 27, 2011. Holla!

Shout outs:

Khalil…my dear friend that I love more than sleeping in. You sent me a text today that changed my entire mental state. I feel so blessed to have friends in my life that I can call family and you are one of them. Though, there have been moments where I wanted to slap you, at the end of the day, I know I am supported by you and Anna (lovely wife) and loved as unconditionally as I love you. Such a gift. You have always challenged me to see past what I consider to be easy for everyone to see. I believe we can have more than 1 soul mate in our lives serving different purposes. You are def one of my soul mates. Never forget how much I love you.
“A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...”-Elizabeth Gilbert

Kenny DeRoque…(we work together, but have built a friendship over the last 2 years that means so much to me. Kenny’s uncle, Rick DeRoque was on BL10 and similar to Khalil, Kenny challenges me) Kenny…I just want to say that I appreciate our friendship very much and LOVE that you are doing CrossFit. I am inspired. Thank you for your friendship.

To the people that have such issues with same sex marriage...I don't eat cat treats, or dig in my ears with sharp things, or have relations with my vehicle...I am just a girl who loves another girl. That is all. NOH8.


I really struggled getting to my personal training appointment today. A mix between tired and just not wanting to work so hard in the middle of my day, however, Cara showed up at my office and we hit the gym with Michael hard today. And now, just as Michael reminded me, I feel so much better. My body is aching, but to me, that ache has always equaled hard work. No matter how much you don’t want to get your ass moving, just do it. Anyone can do anything for 50 minutes (except for maybe holding your breath).

Try to keep it simple. Don’t over think it. This journey is hard. It takes every part of you to stay focused and mindful. But it’s just eat less, move more. No cat treats, scissors or cars involved.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

{Life by Personal Trainer}

by Brianne
My goal this year is to lose 100 pounds. Plain and not so simple. I see my weight loss journey from 2 extremely different sides. Plain: It is a day to day task. Mindful awareness of my food choices and calorie intake and to sweat during a workout for at least 2 hours a day 6 days a week. Very easy when you just write it out. Eat less. Move more. Easy. However….not simple: the other part of me sees it as F’in impossible and I’m not sure it’s actually going to happen. One hundred pounds isn’t an easy goal. It’s 100 freakin pounds. Have you held 100 pounds recently? A small horse weighs 100 pounds. I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to carry a baby horse around all day anymore. I knew this weight loss journey was going to be different the first day I woke up at the Biggest Loser Resort. In order, to succeed on this journey, I recognize that I need help. I may have put the weight on all by myself, but to get it off, I need support, tools and direction. In my last blog “Feel Proud”, I posted that I signed up for my first personal training appointment. Well, I am several sessions in and it is the most significant part of my journey right now. I was terrified to sign up, let alone go to my first appointment. I am being trained by the one and only Michael Friedman, Jennifer Rumple’s (BL12) trainer. Every workout with him is like no other workout I have ever done and has me aching before the end of the day. He pushes me, sees me just as a girl trying to save her life. There is no judgment. He structures our 50 minutes so that I leave sweating, nauseous and shaky. It’s the best decision I have made for myself in my entire life. Having a personal trainer holds me accountable. It’s not just my time I have to consider. Michael is in demand and chooses me as a client. I can’t let him down. But more than that, I can’t let myself down. I arrive at the workouts dreading what he has planned on his clipboard, but I leave proud of myself and almost down 1000 calories for the day. I feel myself getting stronger, but the workouts are hard. I tweeted today: “Death by personal trainer” and Michael replied “Life by personal trainer”. He is right. I have made the choice. I choose life. (Even if I feel like death during the workout). I can’t thank Michael enough for believing in me and giving me the time and tools I need to save my life.
Update: I am still eating 1400 calories a day. And I shut up and sweat 6 days a week. I lost 5 pounds last week. I live in my workout clothes and drink tons of water. If you are reading this and are in a different place, please know it is not easy and I don’t ever want anyone to think I don’t struggle with it. I fear everyday that something will put me over the edge that takes me back to my sad, miserable life. Know that I am trying my best to keep myself on this journey and if you are having trouble, know that tomorrow is a new day. I hate when people say “if I can do this, you can do this”. SHUT UP! We all have our own journeys and everyone feels differently about it. However, I will remind you that not so long ago…I was ready to just allow myself to die young. It doesn’t get much worse than that. I have made changes in my life because I refuse to allow anything, let alone my weight to stop me from living the life I want. Nothing tells me what to do. Make the change. Believe in yourself.
Shout outs:
Heather Acheson…by BLR boo…thank you for being in my life and allowing me to be in yours. Seeing you for dinner (and 10%) reminded me of how lucky I feel to have had my Biggest Loser Resort experience. It has changed my life. You are such an inspiration to me and I can’t wait to get to where you are. So strong. So fit. So gorgeous. I admire you and learn from you. When tempted, pour beer on it. Thank you.
Teri Parry (yes, that is her married name)…I have felt such guilt for not reconnecting with you. You are one of my dearest friends and I have always felt such support from you. Seeing you the other night was something I really needed. Thank you for forgiving me and loving me so unconditionally. I adore you and vow to always keep you close.
Nan…(aka Monica)…thank you for being so patient with me the last several weeks. I am not quite sure how I would do this without you. In your honor I quote: “A Jedi must have the deepest commitment, the most serious mind”-Yoda
When you know you can’t get a good workout in, make changes to allow yourself a few more calories burned. I run up the stairs to my house every day. I park further away. I try to stand instead of always sit. The small things count.
The best 10% is with friends. I eat 1 meal a week that is a treat. Nothing crazy, but I realized that I haven’t really used many 10%’s and last week, Cara and I met Heather for dinner and I enjoyed my 10% so much more. Food will always be a social part of my life. I don’t want to fear it, but rather embrace it and enjoy it. Dinner with Heather was such a treat.
Book an appointment with a personal trainer. 
Stop carrying your horse. 
We love Rob and Big and their real life Mini Horse.